Thursday, August 17, 2006
it really feels bad to know that you are nothing in the eyes of the one you care so much for. it hurts to know that you belong to nowhere of this person's heart nor memory. perhaps your name will not ring a bell in a few months time. u will never meet again. yet within you, regret still flows and drowns your heart. maybe just a word could have saved your silent memories, looking and looking from a distance away, returning only an indifferent smile; to escape from reality. to escape from your own conscience. to escape from falling yet deeper into this well of never-ending emptiness and darkness, to tell yourself to wake up. but at the same time, you dont want to. this is what you live for, what you cling on to sustain the exhaustion of living.
because if u do not, you will lose even the feeling of exhaustion and emptiness. u will lose all emotions; the unrecognizable feeling of numbness. if u do not, perhaps you will never feel again or smile again.
it really aches to know that this person will never remember you again...
