i knew eveything would end, as usual. why me why this way? i dont understand. so its either i lie to myself or i lie to everyone else? so thats what my life's meant for? i cant be myself in front of anybody thats the bottom line is it? maybe i shouldnt even be thinking such stuff now. they work so hard for my education and all i do everyday is brooding over who i am, despairing over what is irreversible. i dont know waddehell my life means to anyone. and e worse thing anyone can tell me now is to stop my vulgarities. try being denied the only source of emotional outlet and tell me why i cant stop. dont talk to me about being angelic and what else crap you have about my character unless you are walking the path i am.
