i dunno wads wrong with me recently. im trying to get myself bothered by things because im starting to feel nothing for anything. maybe i get pissed with people beacuse i want to, not because im really angry. nowadays the first thing i think of when things happen is whether im supposed to be angry, whether im supposed to be sad and then decide how to feel. am i trying to escape maturity? and then again, im glad im no longer bothered by the flaws of people even though i see them so clearly and almost immediately. sometimes i wonder if im actually more evil than miss teo.
i was so disappointed when u went to smoke. i dunno if u smoked beacause u were pressurised by wad happened, or maybe u never stopped. i really hope you'll stop it. but i guess u wouldnt quit it just because i hope u will.
