waddehell. u hurt me and u just leave like that. i forgave you i really did but u just made me so hurt again. im starting to think u werent even serious at all. maybe i was just a game to u. something u wanna use to fill up ur time. i feel like swearing at you but im supposed to forgive. cant i just be human. all your songs and promises were freaking crap and i was stupid enough to hold on to them, to even believe they were for me. u probably gave them to so many other gals. i actually believed you. u just wanted me to fall for u and then throw me away. u just like the feeling of going after someone and succeeding. how come i never saw that. a stupid freaking bladdy dota game is more important than me. DUH i never saw that. DUH i never knew my importance to u. DUH im not even important to you. u freaking live with her u jerk. im just a freaking game u play and apologise to when u lose. wtfuck u bastard. its so simple and easy to u. i fuckin found out about a live-in gf of yours so u just say sorry, i forgave u, thats it. why must u make me hate u again. now i find it so hard to forgive after all u said. u just freaking crushed the image i had of u. to make it worse, no one fucking cares la. wth do i look like im in the mood to settle stupid childish courting games. everything reminds me of u. a simple word like salmon sends another tinge of sadness. i never realised i liked u this much. im such a fool. i feel like a loser. why am i still missing you after all you've done? how come i never realised i actually had such feelings for u, enough to hurt this way. its just so hard to keep up the smiles, the jokes, the concern for other people's problems. wads wrong with me. thursday is coming. somehow i regret even deleting your messages. somebody just wake me up from this. im not myself, im not thinking, i cant think. fuck me fuck those promises.
