"did god teach u to be so uncontented?"

thats wad woke me up. a simple message through shawn and He opened my eyes. yea why am i glooming and harping on my class. there must be a reason for wherever He decides to place me and i just failed his test. there must be a reason for him to grant me a miracle to get a 13, not a 20, to choose cj in the end. as brother paul says: "wad u have are the gifts from god, wad u do with them are gifts to god."

" "do not let you hearts be troubled. Trust in God and trust also in me."- John 14:1
"peace i leave with you; my peace i give you."- John 14:27

the best quotes in any school. they caught my eye immediately and i never turned my thoughts from them throughout all the talks. joanne too, i presume. im amazed by how the quotes all over cjc touches me so immensely. maybe thats the reason i feel a sense of belonging in school (not the class, lol). a sense of holiness envelopes cj despite profanity spurting from every direction. he is there with us, i know it. if i do become a school leader, it will be his work, his glory. if i dont, it would be his will, his plan. i never understood the meaning and reason for leadership in the last 10 years, i always did it for my own glory, thats why i failed. but now i see him and his plan for me. everything he thrusts to me paths my way for his calling. i see it and i will do it. no more "chasing after the wind". haha i like this quote, it sounds nice.

i havent checked my pay, havent bought school uni, havent done class flag, havent bought a new bag, havent cut my hair, havent bought FBTs, havent finished reading the bible, havent ran in eons other than ODAC that day, havent forgotten him, havent said bye to ric, havent changed my sleeping habits. oh dear, theres much more. i havent adapted to my class, havent caught up with pat, havent really talked to vic since that day, havent eaten wyncy's hot fudge, havent seen eunice and joan in years, havent talked to my brother in months, havent made a resolution to do household chores for grandma before i go to school, havent stopped taking cab, havent stopped washing my hair at night, havent stopped judging people, havent stopped cursing and swearing silently, havent gone for confession, havent evangelised to my mum, havent seen shilong in days, havent touched any sort of ball in years, havent gone to city harvest with shawn, havent gone to risen christ in 5 days, havent devoted at least a chapter to God everyday, havent gotten over believing in certain idols, havent been sleeping well, havent found a cure for my eye rings, havent bought a pencil case, havent bought stationery, havent touched the newspapers in ten lifetimes, havent listened to the radio in years, havent watched a movie in years. ohmygosh.

banana-na-na-na-na-na
apples, orange, peaches, pears.
jackfruit!

"go now and leave your life of sin"

jana 3:27 AM