fuck it la. she just threatened to call and make them fire me if i dont quit. wtf. its so ironic how parents can add burdens to your already sinking load. its not surprising for me though, its been like this for my whole fucking life. hope she finds this page somehow and reads this bladdy post. im not just staying for e money. somehow its part of my lfe already, yes peculiar i know dont ask me why, i cant explain either. leaving fish and co means much more than just leaving a job. its not gonna be easy to keep in touch once i leave, and im gonna lose one fren that has been here with me throughout these months. it also means no more seeing him at the griller or singing like a chicken in the kitchen. it means one final and only life in jc. i cant and dont want to commit 2 years to this kind of life. its like sealing my fate u know. call it escapism if u want but im not gonna leave and lose people who are significant to my life. about God's work im not sure if its done. even if its not, i wont quit. if she really fucking does that, its gonna be the hardest time to be a christian.
