and why do i even like you? eludes me; staunch buddhist, foreigner, cant speak chinese, average looks, ah beng-walk. i just dont get it.

class lunch was alright, surprisingly. but hey, alot of prayers were used ok. well it was pretty awkward at first, small talk and repeated stupid questions. it actually only started warming up after edson and izz left. somehow six is more comfortable than eight. and yes. there were only the 8 of us who went. thats half of the class. but heck, its better than nothing. another lunch tomorrow, i'll be praying my guts out tonight. and kill me. theres econs, lit and maths homework already. imagine life when hols end. lit lecture was the only comprehensible and listen-able one. the rest just felt like they were incoherent lectures preached for totally unessential purposes; who wants to know how a log graph looks like. do people eat that? who wants to memorise demand and income. people need it, not read it. i paticularly liked the poem, or sonnet more specifically -"on his blindness". his faith felt so familiar, like that of mine. somehow language and philosophy mean much more to me than statistics. these are things that can be used to inspire people, to have deeper understanding and hence apathy for others, to really walk into someone else's life through his words. what more when they explore death and the Faith so explicitly.

im physically and mentally tired. sigh.
glass house is much better than wheelock. well for one, it wasnt full house. it is seriously organised and well, professional if its possible to say so. but i'll never stop loving novena's fishes. i've grown attatched to them. this eludes me too. perhaps its cos i entered when i felt like i dint belong anywhere. well i'll miss it if ever quit. irritating nags at home have been trying to fish me out of novena pond every night. i know they care but i havent finished God's work there. and i just realised i need the money too. and the emotional satisfaction. especially Ms Wyncy YIP. =)
well glass house again tmr. oh they say i take ecstasy. im always cheerful.
????? they really dont know me. haha.

i want to meet pat, i want to meet shilong, i wanna meet shawn, i wanna meet eunice, jieying, joan. i wanna meet him, and also my eyecandy from IG6 who looks like a rugby player. oh he's cute! dang cute, really. but anybody who sees him will say average and fat. but he's cute. teddy bear!
i realise remembering him just lifted my mood. lol. but i dont like him, thats definite.

love the lord with all your heart and all your strength and all your soul.

jana 12:18 AM