i finally just wept. he just totally turned the whole story around. i dunno wad to say. all my trust is gone. i feel so betrayed. why the fuck did i ever fall for him. fuck him la. i really dont know wad to say. i feel like i should just quit fish and co now. just forget the whole place, forget everything. everyone's leaving. and i really cant believe he's such a bastard. i just dont get it. i feel like slapping him i feel like my heart's tearing apart. wtf. and i cant cry at home. i dunno wad to do. i dont wanna go to school tmr. im sick of everything falling on me altogether. i cant be there fully for victoria, i dont know how to help shilong, i hate school i hate him i feel damn fucked up. i feel so much betrayal from him. i dont know wad to do. maybe i shouldnt have found out. i just feel so horrible so let down. he's not at all the person i thought he is. i feel like just calling him and just.. i dunno. u just totally fucking broke my heart do u know that. i totally dont recognize you at all. who are you seriously. i hate u really.
