I think asking that was a wrong move. But I guess it just gave me the answers that I wanted.

Exhaustion + vodka = tears.

well not a lot, but enough to get stuff out of me. Thank god for summer and shilong. Never thought summer would be the first to see me cry. And thank u shilong for always being here. Heard that? Haha.
everyone says to stop replying but its hard. Roche asked me a qns that just stumped me totally.
“what do you want? “
yea wad do I want, wad do I expect.
I want him to say I mean more than her, he cares for me more than her, he likes me more than her, he needs me more than her.
But its impossible.
to be honest, I’ve totally lost trust in him. But that still doesn’t stop me from thinking of him and missing him.

10km run from CJ to sixth avenue was a killer. But that seriously took my mind off him. My whole brain was just singing “Our Father” over and over again. All was perfectly fine until the last slope. I lost all motivation after that. It was shit. Someone vomited and some people took a bus home. Somehow I forgot to say Our Father’s prayer and fatigue just took over completely.ODAC is fun. And it’s a stepping stone to future missionary works. I know it. But I cant help but wanna give up and just slack. Part of me hates stress but then again I don’t know how to live without responsibilities. I don’t know how to be just a normal student but part of me is sick of placing high expectations on myself and burdening myself with loads I cant deliver perfectly.

I just know that my class has much to accomplish in a week. A flag is bad enough. And furniture? Lame.

what are friends for?
Sometimes u wonder why friendships can be so easily replaced by a relationship. U wonder why u continue to love a fren so much when u come after them, their family and their boyfriends. Maybe that’s what makes girls and guys different.Maybe that’s why people call themselves brothers and no one calls each other sisters.

but no matter what, thank god for my angels =)

parents make me sick

I’ll be there.

jana 1:47 AM