and so its Water Festival, i wish i shared their joy.
it reminds me of Chinese New Year. its amusing how time seems to be fleeting and at times a dreary journey. i remember working with lone and ivy on New Year's day. all the other shops were closed and new year seemed forlon at novena fish and co. that was the 3rd day. and then comes the memory of the 2nd day. realising i had nothing to wear, last minute shopping had to be done. and so miss young lady here rushed down to novena square, made a trip to the outlet to check my schedule, then lonsdale for a red shirt. well here comes the erm, juicy part (thats if you are me). i remember the outlet was litrally black. like BLACK. somehow they just switched off all the lights and evryone was gnawing at fried chicken winggs. i approached yongming from the railings, trying to catch a glimpse of him at the hatch from the corner of my eye. he wasnt there. and so when i was loking at the schedule, mr tallie appeared with Han by his side. and he went "eh u waiting for me ar? im almost done like er, 20 min." i gave the "waddehell-is-wrong-with-you, get-a-life" face.
yea thats basically all i remember. oh and yongming said i finally look like a girl that day. yea thats it. just posting random thoughts.
a regular mood of self-disappointment again. work, school, relationships with the world. all things seem uncertain and shady. i've been feeling very distant from God these recent days, till the mail to roche. started flipping through my bible and kelly's book - The Purpose-driven Life for quotes that flowed through my mind but just couldnt find the exact spot from my bible. the quotes i found struck a chord in me, i realised they spoke to me, just like they were going to speak to her. aiya, how mighty is the lord. he's kinky, just cant understand him =D
initially i was about to blog about wyncy's feedback, frienships fading, insecurities and resentment. then i decided to finally pick up the brown book i've been negleting for weeks. in an instant, everything else seemed to fade away and my whole person just started to revolve around him again. only he felt significant and i suddenly couldnt be bothered with those stuff anymore. ok im so tired im falling asleep on my keyboard. got lots to say about Him and his purposes but i shall leace it for tmr. im dying.
i love my Father =)
