Sunday, May 6, 2007
i remember i was saying how stressed i was over school. functions if im not wrong. all i said was night, take care. but now i think back, maybe it doesnt mean that much to him,but it meant alot to me. hey u know,maybe all the times he said goodnight and he was gonna go sleep,maybe he just went to play dota. yes like how shawn likes to make fun of me.yes yes. dota. im getting possesive even when im nothing to him. my gosh.i should never find a boyfriend.
sigh. for a period of time, i thought everthing was fading, but i realise i still like him. nah but im quite sure its fading. sigh. it hurts to see him still pissed with me. i think. and he keeps getting the wrong impression of me. which is something beyond my "locus of control"(social psychology) sometimes i miss him, sometimes i dont. i just wanna see him the grill,singing. btw, its his birthday on the 23rd. sigh.
imagine if he ever gets to read this.