im supposed to be studying for a stupid culture test tmr, but no. im wasting my life reading blogs. i should be doing something to my face and those stupid pimples but no, im reluctant to moove my ass. i should be bathing and getting all the sweat and smell off my fat body, but no, i just cant imagine having to travel to the cupboard, travel to the bathroom, wash my hair and let it dry. jana is tired and tired. end of story.

time heals everything. yes yes. from embarrassment to happiness to pain. but tomorow is coming. where did my time go? wad should i do how should i be wad should i say how should i act. pretend nth happened or .. wad? wad wad tell me how.

uh huh, the world is small small small. its turning upside down. here you come again. no need for the pictures that i lost, its a real life thing. darn. why. not that im not glad though. no no but the other one is better, will always be. i guess? its been a long while since then.
dont get wad im saying? uh huh its meant to be. heres some legible stuff finally:

life sucks.

uh huh it does. what with parents that drive you up the wall and give you inspirations to be a nun. what with stupid F-ing projects that serve no bladdy purpose and human relationships that will never be utopic. uhh huh.
understatement: life sucks.

i got into netball. what a surprise. i am so sure i played like shit, seriously. just couldnt focus and to be honest, i dint know where i was going, who i was guarding, what i was doing. but i guess miss coach is blind. well thats good anyway. but it just seems like i wont fit in. what with people who live in clubs.(erm well looks like) and uh huh. just different. realise i feel different to the whole world? haha. theres always another side of me, its always just one of the selfs you are seeing now. but really, not interested to socialise. where have all the friends gone? haiy. where is er. whats her name. hui tze i think. where is miss shunli. darn.now i've to look for frens yet again. i am un-social. ---bottomline.
i wanna join canoe polo. adventure seekers. soccer.
give me time in my life. i hate time.

why do things happen the way they do. SIGH. it was resignation.i am resigned. i'll just have to face the embarrassment, face a broken connection. argfhh. F.
i just feel like babbling on forever. i dont wanna bathe, come out, realise i am tired, understand that yet again, im not studying for tests. as usual.

omg. SIGH. haiy. so many things. sigh.

jana 12:47 AM