yesterday, i missed him alot again. before going to my grandma's house, i was left alone at home and the whole house was dark, light-less. i think i was half asleep, kind of like half-conscious, half dead. but i knew my brain was thinking about him and my heart was missing him. maybe it was a dream? maybe i was dreaming of him so my heart was missing him? i remember somewhere in my sleep i was tearing and bewildered. i thought i didnt like him and i dont miss him anymore, then everything just comes again suddenly. the house phone rang, i jolted awake then everything just seemed normal again. i didnt feel like i missed him, not even like him anymore. its so confusing, i really dont understand. and now, i feel like i miss missing him, i dont actually miss him.i just hope to see him. is that counted missing?
sometimes i still wonder how its like to hold his hands. or to even talk to him one to one, heart to heart. see we didnt even start, why am i so not over him. whats wrong with me. and omg, why him? i still cant answer that question. it just doesnt make sense at all.
i have yet to complete 歌词感想，京剧人物介绍，周记, social psychology project. sigh.
he's not workng the whole week yet again.
sigh.
im drifting apart from everyone, and im not even trying to make an effort.
sigh.
matthew 11:28
"come to me, all you who labour and are heavy laden, and i will give you rest."
1 corinthians 13:7
"Love always protects, always trust, always hope, always perserveres."
