fuck my mother la ji bye. omg. just now rochelle hyperventilated, i was scared la, and for a moment i just went blank. then i ran down to get paper bags from Han's. i realised i have delayed reactions for everything. i realised i laugh when im stressed or sad. its natural. im not pervertic, i think i just dont know how to feel. ya maybe. okay so then she's okay already. and so im stressed by feeling so stupid, uncalm, retarded. and my script is by tmr. fuck me man. and my mother has to come and ask me so many bladdy questions, its fucking irritating. i tell you, next time anybody looks stressed out or irritated, approach and ask wad happened if she doesnt feel like answering, fuck off. and omg getting jealous over something like that is fucking strange and fucking retarded. arghh. i feel so stupid, luckily she's fine.

a joke thats gone too far. F.

i was about to blog about me messaging him to wish good luck for exams, but now i dont have the mood. grr. alright ya i messaged good luck then turn out today's his last paper. ya i dont really like him that much anymore, can feel. im not that bothered by wad he says, even when he said he still liked me. i had the brains to remember that it might be a joke. applause people!

from today, i decided the kind of guy im gonna be with must be calm, mature. thats it. basically it just means old guys maybe. but i know maturity ranks top in my list. i cant wait for that guy to appear, seriously. as in he appeared already, AK. but im waiting for another one to appear FOR ME.

i think i have good intuitions. like perfect. hahahaha. but it sucks when u know something but have to keep it to yourself. grrr.

i still feel dumb. like a dumb blonde, with no brains, no calmness. i think im afraid what people think of me. yupp. but ahhh. my project, shit la. to be exact, i have 2. god save me.

jana 11:59 PM