wah jerk. but i won the war today =D lemme quote my award-winning message:
"seems like someone cant get enough of texting me."
yay, applause. cos i totally won the sarcasm message war today. cant believe it, but all thanks to rebecca being there, she makes me go sarcastic. bitchiness in me comes out when i see her. hahah no la, kidding. actually, u never know, he might think he won too, but im sure i did. i replied shorter messages and i initiated heck-care-u-are-so-childish, topic-ending messages. i know i sound super childish but, applause! i feel good. im no more a DOLL. okay sorry, just natural linking to the Dollhouse review i just finished and sent, though 16 minutes late. oh man. i feel good feeling like the one in control, of both my own emotions and the conversation. usually, i naturally become dumb and succumb to my emotions but today, yay. i prayed already that i want to leave everything in my life to God, friendships, relationships, future. i dont want my life, i want the life he wants for me. to be honst, theres still alot of struggling and doubt but i dont care. im just gonna force myself to do wadeva he makes me do, i'll try. how i wish i dint have to try, he'll just plan it and give me no choice. but then again, wads the point of living to fulfil his purpose already, right? right.
sigh.
i still have the hope of being with him, who wouldnt. well i mean if u were me la. but leave it to GOD GOD GOD GOD GOD. yes people, please remind me can? i tend to forget super uber easily. even though i won the stupid war, a part of me still wished i dint end the war. now we arent messaging, darn it. hahahahahah. omg i feel like a dumb blonde, bimbo. ooh bombo, reminds me of victoria. anw that bimbo, hope i dint flood your inbox with that super long thinggy, dint know it was 6 pages either. smile kay =)
stupid jerk. so proud of being a jerk. arghh. btw, sunday's his last day at work, private students cant work anymore. and i dint get that message about :"u wanna see me at work. now i know wad your expectation of me." huh? dont get it, but who cares. and today, i made sure his gf was mentioned when he said "i only cook for the one i adore". aiyo so jerk la, cant stand him. omg. poor gf. or maybe she knows he is like that outside, but she doesnt bother cos she's confident he will never leave her? maybe. thats the art of controlling a guy that lone and roche say. i dont agree though. me means me, no other girls. i dont think thats selfishness? when you really love a person, its natural you dont need nor even want anybody else. so why stay together if theres no long? just for the sake of having a partner? such a waste of time. well, maybe to some people its worth it, compared to being lonely? perhaps.
btw, i forgot to write that he's working already now, as accountant in some ulu dunno where place. i need a new guy. hahahah i've been lamenting to everyone i know, to just find me a guy that can make me like him. short, tall, fat, skinny, square, round, i dont care. just make me fall for him, perfect. can be a HER also, just find me one. hahahahahahah. despo-bimbo. ooh it rhymes!
today, poly-mates and i sat at SIM canteen talking for 4 hours. liking them more and more, alot actually, getting closer. its a good thing, i do treasure them, they are gonna be my pillars the next 3 years.
patricia lim angie. where are u. maybe you are dead, ehh, at least tell me your funeral address right?
lol. choi choi, touchwood im kidding.
jerk.
