and his grace will lead us home

so much to say but just un-say-able.

i was about to type out our conversation when i realised i lost again. the one who loves less has the power in a relationship. how accurate. well, not exactly a relationship though. but i have to say he inspires me to write lyrics. well, dunno why but during cultural lesson, i suddenly came out with this. not sure if it should be a poem or lyric.

回忆像香味一直徘徊
第一次相会和触电
第一回你说抱歉
你说你要挽回
但你忘了家中那朵玫瑰

或许有点沉醉
在你微笑时的暧昧
或许有点后悔
决定不给你机会

好伤好痛
知道你心中他比较重
玩弄还是被感动
你都已经伤到我

希望这是一场梦
夜夜能掌控
回忆不够多
放不了手的借口

有时常想象
我才是你心中那一位
她是花丛里唯一的玫瑰
我们只是被刺伤成的洞

好伤好痛
知道你心中他比较重
玩弄还是被感动
你都已经伤到我

希望都是一场梦
夜夜能掌控
回忆不够多
放不了手的借口


ahh maybe i should be a poet. lol thats wad happens when i am laptop-less and with nothing better to do.

and so my cousin is discussing with my other cousin how to bring back his ex. sometimes i wonder, will all these love stuff work out in the end? wad about the scars? do they fade? even if they do, will everything last? if it doesnt, then wads the point? jana needs some positive light to be shed on love and relationhips, desperately actually. nah actually, im too young. shall not bother myself with such stupid stuff. sigh. classic excerpt:

i am so eager to know why u cant forget and think about me all the time.

maybe cos u were the first person to hurt me? not sure either. but dont worry, not letting go is now history. i happen to be chinese and not blonde.

and the sarcasm war resumes.

Child of mine(I have come)

You decided long ago
To let me in to your deepest soul
You have given me
A pride of place
Then somehow you let it fade away
I know you so well
And I can tell
When you've been hiding something from me
Just let it go
Let my love flow
Let it bring you release

Chorus:
I have come
To breathe new life
Into the heart of a child of mine
I have come
To give you peace
So lift your head and believe
You were made
In a beautiful way
Born to be holy
And sure of your faith
Someting inside you
Has led you astray
Now you're locked in a struggle
And it won't go away
I know you have been
Down on your knees
I saw you cryin' for mercy
Well how can I help
When you're still holdin' on
To somethin' more precious than me

Chorus 2:
I have come
To breathe new life
Into the heart of a child of mine
I have come
To lift you up
To set you free so believe
It's all about total surrender
It's all about total surrender
It's all about total surrender
Givin' it up when the goin' gets tough
Givin' it up when the goin' gets rough

listening to the cd i bought from novena church that day, but that song issint from here. its from a random blog. paticularly struck me:

son of god, you are the great I Am
we are changed by the power of your blood
we are changed by the power of your blood..

can we find a friend so faithful
all our sorrows bear...
what a needless pain we bear
all because we do not carry everything to God in prayer...
jesus knows our every weakness
take it to the lord in prayer.

lalalalalalala.
sigh, drama script.

jana 11:46 PM