thought of retaking poly is detestable, but its facing the people thats unthinkable. afraid and regretful, i've come this far, 1 more month to the end of semester. shit, i really wanna turn back time. i need a miracle, 1 last miracle. He saved my PSLE, streaming, O levels, one last one is all i want, no more. really. now looking back, seems like i've been getting through life like walking through a fog, i guess i always knew it, it just dint make an impact or seem to ring a bell. i guess.
come everybody, turn christian overnight and pray for me.
it's God i miss the most, really. its scary how its so easy to follow saturn and backslide. shit, just 4 nights without prayers can lead to totally letting go and rotting. its been what, a week? other than dropping by novena church this morning and ruining my foundation. i need to learn discipline. how many years has it been since i made it my resolution?
its the parents thats unthinkable. sometimes i pity them for spending so much time and effort.
i would forget him, i would rememeber wad it means to have a future, i would rememebr expectations and gratitude.
if i could turn back time.
