while re-reading wyncy's post, i remembered that time when we were talking after spring cleaning. think i wrote it already but i want to write it again. he was just talking about his life and his best friend opposite me, we were seperated by like 2 tables,but i just had this feeling, like a stop in time. suddenly his voice faded and just watching him speak i had this feeling i could just watch him like that forever, i felt this warmth and bliss in my heart, i think i felt i loved him. i felt something in my heart that i never felt before. another time was staff meal, when i stole his omelette. we were seating side by side, and as i watched him eat (which wasnt very gracious)i felt so happy, just to see him eat. like just seating beside him and watching him eat was the luckiest and happiest thing in my life, i dint mind doing it forever.
my cousin just went back to australia and before he left he said " go online kay? so that u can give me advice. to make our relationship worse. haha. but its okay , cos anyway, i've nothing more to lose. right? " as he said that, i saw tears in his eyes. since when the person u love will love u back? nobody said it was so, but i guess its been assumed so many times by so many people in the world. and when reality strikes, it really hurts.
school-- sucks. i hate waking up in the morning. if only school starts at like 2pm, not bad. but then i wouldnt be able to work. school problems just dont ever leave me, since i was in kindergarten i remember. i guess it just has something to do with me and my character. i think i really should pray about it. all non-christians should turn christian overnight and pray for me, lol.
oh btw, i dreamed of him, i mean not of him, but related. i dreamed my mother messaged me and said :" hope u will quit your job and concentrate on school. i know u like this guy from the kitchen called yan naung, he even said "....." but school is more important" darn it, i forgot the "...." part, thats like the most important part of my dream but i cant remember. but i do rememeber that it was a real message he ever sent me, exactly the same, but my consciousness cant rememebr it. hahah.
