its embarrasing to say this, but thats what my blog is for.
i've been fantasizing of getting married with him, all because that stupid phyo read my stupid palms and said i would marry a foreigner. DAMN.
i am all burnt out from work and lack of rest. i think im sick of working, cos i've been doing that for a full 2 months. for a change, im not exactly dreading school to reopen. as for the insecurities with my clique, heck. oh yea, zhiyun called me just now. ahh she's one of the bible stuudy leaders who approached me in school. she messaged and said that she has a message to me from god that she's been wanting to share, but to no avail. erm apparently cos i am too lazy to get my arse to school.hello its like 1 and a half hours away. and so yea, she really got me all curious. issit gonna be about my calling? my temptations? his plan for me? or maybe he's gonna tell me that im gonna marry a german and not a burmese. ah in a way, i would rather marry a negro than a german. erm dont ask me why, cos i wont know how to answer either.
just a quick update. raymond's condition is improving, just that till now, tan tockseng has no idea/ refuses to reveal his situation. basically, nobody can be sure if its even cancer. i donated $350 and now i would say that im broke. however, im craving for prawn fettucini, new york fish and chips, seafood pizza and grill sambal from fish and co. im craving for steak and wine. i really am.i could give up my cab fare u know? but i cant afford to take cab this month. and im gonna get him a bible and a crucifix. sigh. all my food. BYE. but!!!!! LOVE is important. anybody would love me enough to treat me?:DD
just to let you know, u are important to me. after my mother, my bro, my father. LETTER? alamak, must you write things out? or u want me to write u a poem? my gosh.
haiy. im so tired. how i wish i could be happy being a horrid person and not replace him.
bye bye world.
