life's rather okay, for a change. yea,since when do i blog about life being okay?
came down with sorethroat and flu last few days. i havent been sick for so long that the feeling of being sick kind of shocked me. its quite horrid u know. then later i realised i wasnt recovering, because i've been taking expired medicine.
first week of school was rather okay. no surprises, no nothing. felt like i've been going to school forever. went for song composing, was boring. but came up with a rather catchy tune for toilet paper advertisement. in all honesty, i felt like it sounded for some cleaning product.
grandma's left for australia, prob gonna see her only chinese new year next month. gave her $50 angbao, and you should have heard her SCREAM. we all thought she fell or something. i think i felt bad, especially after my mum lectured me, that it seems i care more for outsiders than family. i feel bad taking cab like almost every morning when my dad works so hard just to earn that same amount. i feel bad drinking expensive coffee when so many people are working so hard for money. i feel bad spending $7 on a meal when my mum only spends $3.50 and when i only earn $5 per hour. i did some calculations and i figured that my pay would prob be max only $400 from now on cos of school. in all honesty, i really feel the need to get a new phone. but i should give the money to my mum instead. i think they are having another donation draw for raymond this end of month. i'll be giving much less.
i feel kind of far away from God. like i dont even feel guilty when i've sinned. i read the bible but feel nothing, i pray but feel nothing. then how?
basically, life's like a thread now. rather peaceful and all, but i just get this feeling that it might break in an instant. just hoping that nothing much happens and life stays this way. or better.
