wyncy's posts always
inspires causes me to reminisce moments with him.
saturday, i still remember clearly a sentence he said to roche in front of me "jana, she's quite fun to tease you know?" yea, he likes entertainment. and giving him the pleasure of getting entertained feels, yea like u said, cheap. something along those lines. like how at times when i miss him alot, i feel so pathetic and so cheap, and so loser-fied, cos im probably just one of the millions that he "teased". but i guess things happen for you to grow from them and life is a journey of maturity. heartbreaks and tears shed, they are just expressions of your emotions that ought to relieve the feelings. however, its human nature we tend to look back and focus on these expressions, we forget how it actually feels after breaking down. we just
relive the pain.
when he was about to leave on sat, i was mopping station A, around table 15 and 26, (its around the entrance), i think he wanted to come closer and say goodbye, but damn it. some bladdy customers came in at the moment he walked near me. so then he just mouthed goodbye. i sensed something in the smile, but in times like this with those feelings i have and for such people, even the most mature old man wont be able to discern, what more for me.
i imagine 20 years down the road, we would both be married with our husband and wife with our own kids. one day we bump into one another at the mall, how would i feel? or perhaps in the next 20 years i'll still be seeing him online once, twice in a week. in the future years, would we be conversing? would we even be chatting once in a while? or we just dont talk anymore. or maybe he wont come online anymore cos theres no one to tease (assuming he's a faithful husband, assuming thats his only channel to chat up gals). maybe then he would be someone of the past, totally lost and no trace of him in my life anymore?
i hope he continues to use frenster.
