jesus
i consecrate my heart
i consecrate my soul
to you i give my all
have mercy
forgive me all my sins
holy spirit fill my heart
your love in every inch
abba father
change the heart in me
only jesus i shall see
no one else can ever be
my only saviour, my lord, my king.
actually, i had a melody for that but it sounds like something a priest will sing for eucharist. hmm. confidence? so many what ifs huh.
yea, im consecrating myself for 2 years. on saturday night, i decided on one year consecration, but during service this morning, i felt and decided on 2 years. hmm. but u know, the presence of God was so strong, the whole church was crying but i dint cry. walk in faith and not by sight? but i know im still gonna give my heart to jesus, i just gotta pray and fast and let him know i need his holy presence. as long as i sincerely desire his presence, he will send his spirit down to complete my world. faith! and i think service this week was just super. the presence was just there, so many fell under the power, so many prophesies. i will put up the link when the online video is up. anybody will get saved if they were there, and i literally meant ANYBODY, probably even muslims. ahhhhh, my mum and my bro werent there. ahh. okay faith and wait in faith.
dialect church. i need the fire, the love, the passion, the power, the annointing. and i gotta wear loose clothes and stop old men from peering in. i need the fire and the visions and the convictions. simply loving will just cause fatigue in the long run. i will not be like mother teresa. i will walk by faith, and the kind of faith that i dont need to even wonder or lament on his off and on presence. the kind that can just say with so much confidence "well, He's here. right here with me." and do anything, reach and grab any visions, no matter how high and impossible. so close and sensitive to him that i dont even have to wonder if its a God-given vision or a self-imposed dream. so close to him and so much confidence he is right here beside me that i dont even have to think about my next step. i just do it. with the faith, the fire, the visions, the love, im sure pride cant get me. my pride now is -100%. because i dont see the vision. ijust see the need for help and im helping because my conscience tells me to. well my conscience IS the holy spirit. just that i wanna see somethig big. like see the true purpose. and here, i just gave the example of
pride. alamak so contradicting right. JANA HO. WALK STEP BY STEP WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT. HAVE FAITH THAT HE HAS A PURPOSE, JUST WALK AS HE SAYS. DONT GO FOR THE VISIONS THAT U CAN SEE, GO FOR THE VOICE, TRUST IN THAT VOICE AND JUST GO. YOU CANT HAVE WHAT GOD DOESNT INTEND FOR YOU, U JUST HAVE TO TRUST THAT U ARE IN STEP WITH HIM AND THAT HE IS RIGHT BESIDE YOU. NO VISIONS, NO DREAMS, ONLY FAITH AND LOVE! okay i ask for the fire, the love and the holy spirit.
reign in me.
im sorry for the long post. just voicing my thoughts so i can look back next time. im tired. i gotta sleep. can i dont do project? oh no, laziness! okay pray. goodbye! oh wait, my mum found the cigarettes my bro hid in my cupboard. but he hasnt been smoking, we should have just thrown it away, stupid right. and i do love him so. and my mum. and my dad. i love God! oh ya, W400 band.
hmm. only guitar is perfect, okay close to perfect. vocals is the worst. we need singers. more important than that, we need a band of people who are truly singing for God and no one else. our music is totally not annointed. its not gonna go far like that. so i pray right now (okay all christians go kneel down and speak in tongues RIGHT NOW. yes i mean it.)
I PRAY that holy spirit, you will come within our midst and change all our hearts in and out. i pray that as u soften our hearts and O God, as u enable us to fellowship with your spirit, you will renew our hearts and our minds, u will reign over us, our music, and u will give us the love and faith in our Father, that we may no longer be bounded by pride. we want to shine for you and not oursleves, we wanna be glorified through you, for you, we wanna be instruments of your grace and conductor of your annointing. annoint us with fresh faith and love, that ur power and your holiness will channel through us, that we may be fully utilized for your purpose and for your kingdom. AND ALL GOD'S PEOPLE SAY: AMEN!
yes. pray for all the elderly in dialect church, that their hearts will be softened, that the holy spirit will complete their world, that they will know jesus more and more each day. take away the sicknesses, the pain, hurt, shame, fear in them and grant them peace and joy in your kingdom. teach them love and reveal to them your love for them. let them know they have been crafted by you, that you knew them even before they were conceived in their mother's womb. grant them the peace of your kingdom and fire to spread your good news. i pray for revival! i pray for the ministry staff and helpers, that their fire and heart for these elderlies will never fade, that your holy spirit will impart the fire, the faith and the love to fulfill your will and your purpose and to love like you did. i pray and i pray for more labourers, and labourers working through your strength, your will, your power and your love. we will put our trust in you and we will walk with you.
I PRAY FOR MY FAMILY FOR SALVATION. I PRAY FOR YOUR DIVINE INTERVENTION TO SAVE THE SOULS OF MY MUM, DAD, BRO. I PRAY FOR CAPACITY TO LOVE MY FAMILY, GREATER CAPACITY TO SAVE THE ONES CLOSEST TO ME FIRST. BETTER TIME MANAGEMENT TO SPEND TIME WITH MY BROTHER. I PRAY FOR THE HOLY SPIRIT TO ANNOINT ME WITH LOVE AND TRUST-WORTHINESS, THAT HOLY SPIRIT, YOU WILL SOFTEN THE HEARTS OF MY FAMILY, THAT THROUGH ME YOU CAN CONDUCT YOUR SAVING TOUCH AND DRAW THEM NEAR TO GOD. THAT DEAR GOD U WILL ENABLE THEM TO SEE JESUS FACE TO FACE AND THAT YOUR SPIRIT WILL LIGHT THEIR PATHS. I PRAY FOR SALVATION AND I PRAY FOR LOVE AND TRUST IN THE FAMILY. I PRAY FOR HEALTH AND PEACE. I PRAY FOR UNITY. I PRAY FOR YOUR LOVE TO BE IN THIS FAMILY, THAT I MAY BE A TESTIMONY FOR YOU. I TRUST IN YOU AND I WILL WALK WITH YOU FOR ALL MY LIFE. AMEN.
never meant it to be a prayer list. but here it is. bye bye world. and i love my frens too!
