went to novena church again last few days and was just so amazed with God's grace and love upon me.
was reminded of the countless visits i made in the past just to find a place to cry, and the countless times His peace became my shelter. how much memories i have left behind in that parish hall, how much tears have been shed upon the wooden pews. yes its been about a year and just so amazed at the prayers he has heard and answered. So much healing time and again, so much peace, and how He's found me a church, a mission, a ministry. How much he has changed me. where would i be, what would i have become without him?
He's brought joy, peace, purpose to my life. How much he has changed me and is still committed to making me a better person. every single day, how thankful i am that i know his name, i know about his story and i have the privilege to pray and seek his help and solace. i wanna do more to repay his love but i know nothing i do can ever match up to what he has done for me. now i just really wanna love him more and serve him more. dont wanna be selfish, i wanna be like My Jesus.
How much you have taught me about letting go, about love, leadership, humility and trusting you. time and again i fail you, i fail myself and i always fail. but you're still always there to pick me up and to teach me the right way and the right attitude. Dear Lord, i have nothing and i really am nothing, what a privilege that u are willing to use someone like me full of flaws to help you. so often i let go of your sheep and your laws but u still grant me abundance. now for Your glory i ask for Your strength, fire and focusedness, totally cant do anything without you.
my heart is your sancturay, live and move through me Jesus. Holy Spirit, be my best friend and soulmate. Father, dont let me go from you. and thank you for this special place where i got to know you and the unfailing comfort that u never fail to touch me with everytime i need and meet you there. but but. i hope my room can also be as annointed :D
gd night Jesus, please take a rest and i hope you're smiling at me. and thanks for every single one you have carefully planned and put in my heart. i know all things has a season and reason, and i cherish them. help me to love them the way you planned it.
in Jesus name,
Amen.
i love you Jesus
