Dear God, that must have hurt. I'm sorry. I should have been struck dead for saying those things, accusing you and belittling ur gift of your son. I'm sorry. I know u don't delight in my destruction, it'll prob make u feel worse. What can I do to make ur wound better? Other feed ur sheep. I don't have strength nor gentleness now to do that. Unless u give me ur gentleness and I really have to do it.
I'm just really sorry. It must have taken a lot to give Your only son. Even if I feel like other people can do it too, but on Your part, God You've given All. And I guess yea, it is a lot. I'm just sorry I despised it so much. And accusing and blaspheming You on things ure not and things you didn't do.
I admit, I'm a liar, a hypocrite, filled with lawlessness, pride, greed, lust, anger, violence. God I'm sorry for despising salvation. Thank You for the conviction, Your Salvation is my shield from waywardness, Your gentleness with me makes me great. Lord broaden the path beneath me so my feet will not slip. I'm tired, I think, I don't think I have a direction either and even if I did I have no faith. But now I treasure salvation, it is more than enough for me God. You've given me more than enough. I'm sorry, You're still first priority to me, even if not perfect, God I will strive to make it an even better first priority.
I'm not tired of doing things for You because You have been so gentle with me, because only by Grace I'm still here in Your house no matter how messed up or fallen from grace I am. Salvation, is more than enough for me.
I'm sorry, I dunno how to make it hurt less, worship? Pray? Tell ppl about You? None seems right. Maybe get my life and heart less tormented, going by the logic of the depth at which You love me. Maybe.
Thank You for Jesus, I really appreciate it, and its more than enough for me. Thank You for Your gentleness and mercy all these years, thanks. Thanks for the good role models You've placed in my life. Thanks for the times You were there for me.
I'll say only the good things of You. But I also know that I am able to love You because You first loved me. And thank You for Jesus, I don't despise it anymore, thank You for Your shield of salvation.
You still have hold of my life to do whatever You please with it. Whatever. God You know, not just Your plans but God, my heart, You know. If I'm not good enough, still God make it at least slightly useful to at least 1 person.
Thank You for the ppl who have been praying for me and bother to reach into my life, whoever and how many, God everything is more than enough. Thank You Jesus, bib le says You're praying all the time so You must have been too. Thank You for Your friendship and Your sacrifice for me to even still be able to stand looking righteous before God. Thanks, it must have hurt after everything You went through, so I'm sorry, and thanks Jesus. Blessed are You who come in the name of the Lord.
I repent (I can't promise in behavious form but at least I am sorry and will strive to put it into action), and I say sincerely, Blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord, Blessed are You Jesus, blessed are the leaders and friends and cell grp members, everyone in church that You have put around me. Blessed are You, Jesus, precious son of God. Blessed are You.
Matt 23, 2Sam22:36-37.
