Hmm yea. I never thought it would really just end this way.
I don't know what the future holds. I just need my heart right, my spirit steadfast and able to sustain.
It wouldn't be easy when they graduate or share on mission trips or preach or lead worship. I don't know how others will see me or my decision. But I can only say to myself that You will never forsake me wherever I go, I will be strong and very courageous.
Only by grace I can ask that my destiny be intact. If this means I've failed the test, I guess I've nothing much to beg for or explain. But God You know my heart. I still hope, but yea. Even if its gone, know that God Youare still first in my life, much of y money will still go to missions, I will still win sould for You even if its no longer the way I thought it would be. So.. Yes You are God, King, Creator.
Thank You for Your humility in giving me Your son. Thank You for the ove on the Cross. Thank You that You allowed me to know You, the One True God. And this is more than enough.
